Ramadan Musings(1)

One thing that I know and believe in is that Allah Subhan Wa Ta’ala is definetly in My life in a very active way. Even in my darkest days..in the days when I hated the most..the days where my eyes were red from the constant crying..I always knew that Allah was true and His promise was true…that if you believed in Him..I mean REALLY believed in Him..He would make it easy.

Its something that the muslims who are strong on their deen  find it hard to have mercy on those of us who are struggling…and not struggling because we hate Islam or we hate what we are but struggling because  we have had things happen to us in Islam that has just ripped apart some of the hope that we started out with as muslims.

Its something to see those that are “deening’ enagaging in acts that are far far away from what their exterior projects and sadder still to see that those of us that should know better…dont want to know better…as if Allahs promise is a lie…as if when we are warned again and again of the day that will come..we think we will be safe.

Ramadan is peeking its head around the corner. According to the astrologers the moons is already there ..but we dont take that position. We do as all muslims should do..we look for the new moon of Ramadan becaue we know that Ramadan is going to mean that some of us will be reviatalised in our deen…we want to be one of those who are blessed in the month by having our sins taken away from us…we hope that Allah bestows His Blessings and Mercy on Us in this blessed month.

Ramadan is for everyone.Its  for those that do and those that dont. We are told to extend ourselves more in this month then at any other time. To be kinder and more generous. To be more thankful and more sincere. To be more religious and act on our religious intentions..We are told to be better than we were before because insha Allah the Hope is that from the month that ends on the Eid..we will take what we will have become and be better than before ….and so meet the next Ramadan insha Allah with more of the above.

Oh what a blessed month!

I have such a sense of calm and peace in my life right now. Ater such turmoil and anxiety..Allah has blessed me with sakeenah. I know its Sakeenah because its a calmness that i have within my spirit that soothes me.

Im happy because I know even in my darkest hours..when noone cared about Me…Allah did. I know when I had that last $3 to My name and I had to look at My four childrens eyes who trusted Me..I knew that Allah would be there for me..and he was. Subhan Allah….and all the blessings that come to me…I know that it is from Allah.

Last night my neighbor downstairs rang my doorbell and gave me a Pizza for my children. Every week she has done the same thing for a month. I went into a store today and the muslim owner gave me a wall hanging with the names of Allah on. Its beautiful.The server in the bakery grabbed me today and asked me about Islam. She is 58 yrs old and wants to know what Ramadaan is.

Tell Me that all these things arent from Allah.

I feel sorry for the muslims who wont benefit from this month. I feel sorry but like I said this month is for the ones that dont do either because all those will be in My  duas. Ill make dua for the ones who  have to reconcile being absent fathers from children who deserved more than being their child of their kunya. Ill make dua for the sisters who left Islam and ask that Allah brings them back. Ill make dua for my sons and ask Allah to protect them and Ill make dua for you. Yes YOU who read my blog. Ill make dua for you and your families in this month of Barakah.

And with that said I will be blogging in Ramadaan but Ill try to make it more deen orientated and less secular.

Peace and Love